Understanding how to truly leave behind the past

Master MORE, June 29, 2008. This tool was given in the following message.

The real cause of the murder of the Divine Mother
And so my beloved, what am I leading up to with this? It is to give you an understanding, my beloved. An understanding based on your own experience in this lifetime and in today’s age of what was the real cause of the murder of the Divine Mother on Lemuria. For it was this very process, my beloved, of the tendency of the ego and the false teachers to create graven images of God.

And what is the purpose of the Divine Mother, when there was a representative of the Divine Mother in embodiment? Well, it is the same purpose as Lord Krishna, as the Buddha, as Jesus, as every true spiritual representative or teacher. It is to shatter and challenge the mental boxes, the graven images, that people have created, for this is the essence of the path.

And thus my beloved, those who murdered the Divine Mother entered into the consciousness of wanting to walk the mechanical path, wanting to worship a graven image—which then gave them control, not only over the image, but over the path, and gave them the illusion of control over their material circumstances. And thus my beloved they were not willing to transcend the graven image and come up higher. And so, when someone challenged their graven image, they would do almost anything to silence that challenge. And in some cases going to the extreme of killing that person, either by slitting their throat in a temple or by nailing them to a cross, my beloved.

So you see, what I am trying to point out to you here is that there may be some of you who have a sense that you were on Lemuria, and you were there when the murder of the representative of the Divine Mother took place. Yet my beloved, what I am trying to give you is a different perspective, where you realize that all human beings on Earth have been and are stuck in the consciousness that caused the murder of the Divine Mother.

Do you see, my beloved? The unwillingness to transcend is the very consciousness that caused the murder of the Divine Mother on Lemuria, elsewhere, and the murder of the representatives of God throughout the ages. For this has not only happened with Jesus and the Divine Mother on Lemuria, it has happened countless times, my beloved, and is still happening today. Even in the form of psychic murder, where you silence those who could have spoken out and brought society forward.

So you see, what I am calling you to realize is that what needs to be overcome is that consciousness, the unwillingness to transcend, to self-transcend. And I am also calling you to realize here that I am not saying this to give you any sense of guilt. I am, in fact, saying it to perhaps push your buttons a little bit, so that you can see if you feel guilty over this. For then there is something you need to look at, my beloved.

For have we not explained so beautifully how the Divine Mother feels about the murder of her representative? That there is no judgment, there is no anger, there is no negative feelings—there is only unconditional love. And in unconditional love there is not even the need for forgiveness, my beloved.

How hatred of the Mother begins
Do you see that whatever you have done in this or past lives, it is of no consequence, my beloved, in the grand scheme of things? For everything is created out of Ma-ter light, which is like the sand in the sand boxes you all used to play in as children. Whatever you do with the sand, whatever kind of castle you build, you cannot hurt the sand, my beloved. But neither can you create anything permanent, for when you leave it and the sun comes out and dries the sand in your castle, then it begins to crumble.

Do you see, my beloved? God is not the angry, judgmental God who has put you into a world where the slightest mistake you make will qualify you for hell for all eternity. God is the loving God who has put you into a sand box and said, “Build anything you want, for you cannot hurt the sand. You can only hurt yourself.”

But you truly hurt yourself only in your own perception, my beloved. Thus, do you see, whatever mistake you have made has no consequence in the grand scheme of things? But it has a consequence in your own world, in that it can make you feel guilty, unworthy, fearful, even angry. And so the subtle, psychological mechanism, my beloved, is that when you allow yourself to feel condemnation, self-condemnation, for the fact that you have made a mistake—well then you enter into a state of pain that can easily become so intense that you refuse to look at the decisions, the consciousness, that caused you to commit the outer actions, my beloved. And if you refuse to look at the consciousness, well how can you resolve it and move on. And this then is what becomes the Catch 22 – for some people even a Catch 33 or a Catch 99 – for they have built so many layers of this guilt, anger and fear.

And so you see, my beloved, this is the essence of what caused the murder of the Divine Mother. For the unwillingness to transcend comes from the unwillingness to look at something from the past – and learn from it – because it is too painful. And thus, the ego will always trick you into lessening the sense of guilt so that you can live with it. And how does the ego do this? It does so by causing you to project outside yourself that it was not really your fault. It was something else that made you do it.

And in many cases, my beloved, what happens is:

  • You descend into embodiment in the material realm, where everything is created out of the Ma-ter light.
  • You make a mistake, which we do not see as a mistake, but you see it as a mistake.
  • It causes pain.
  • You will not look at the pain. So you project that it was not your fault. It was some condition in the material realm that made you do it.

And now what have you done? You have projected onto the Mother that it is the Mother’s fault. And how can this not lead to hatred of the Mother, which then – when you are challenged to realize that no, it was not the Mother who made you do it, it was you who made the choice to do it – well then you want to silence that voice.

For you are not willing to look at the pain, to go into the pain and realize that although running away can diminish the intensity of the pain, you will still never be able to run away from it. Instead, you will have the lesser intensity of the pain as the constant companion. But if, instead, you would turn around – walk right into the pain – then you would for a short time feel the intensity of the pain, my beloved, but you would walk through it and realize that you are more than the pain. And that there is peace, release, surrender, freedom on the other side.

The cause of self-hatred
But as long as you run away, you cannot do that. So what must you do? You must justify running away by again projecting layers of images and illusions onto the Mother. Which then causes you to feel more and more resentful, coming to the point of having hatred of the Mother, my beloved. Which is truly a hatred of self; but who are you? You are an expression of the Father, but you are in the Mother of God. For all in the world of form is the Mother. And so, you are also the Mother. So when you hate the Mother, you are hating yourself.

But you see my beloved, what is it you are hating? You are hating something that is an illusion. And what is the grand illusion? Well, it is the illusion caused by the fact that the lowering of the collective consciousness on a planet like Earth has given matter a certain density, where it seems like your actions have physical consequences that you cannot escape and that will follow you for a long time. And thus it seems like the Mother really is punishing you for your mistakes by some physical consequence.

Yet my beloved, the reality is that the Mother is not punishing you. The Mother is at any moment reflecting back to you the images that you hold in your consciousness. And thus, what you are hating are these images that are not the Mother—that are not you. They are created out of the duality consciousness which is unreal. So what you hate is unreal.

And the only way out of it is to look at it from a realistic perspective and recognize that it is not real. Admit that it is not real. Admit that you chose to believe in an illusion. But that neither God the Father nor God the Mother will hold you to that choice and will say that once you have made that choice you should be bound by it forever. It is only the devil who will seek to make you believe in this lie.

The Father and the Mother have given you the free will to change your mind at any time, to undo an imperfect decision by making a right choice—a LIFE decision to replace the death decision. My beloved, what I endeavor to give you here is a greater understanding of how you hold yourself back.

The difference between memory and Akasha
Now my beloved, I will speak to you of the difference between memory, human memory, and what you have come to know as the akashic records. For you see my beloved, in previous teachings we have given the image that there is something called the akashic records, which is truly a certain energy frequency that records everything that has ever happened in the material universe. So that you can, so to speak, rewind the tape in the VCR and replay an event that happened 10,000 years ago or 50,000 years ago.

And there is something called the akashic records. But you see, when you hear of the concept of the akashic records, you project the state of your own consciousness upon it. And so you think that what is recorded in the akashic records is what you saw in that situation when it happened 10 or 10,000 years ago.

So you think that if I was to take you to my retreat and show you a big screen on the wall – for I can tell you that I have ultimate flat screen TV [Laughter] – then you think that what you would see on that screen is the same that you saw when you were in that situation many years ago. But it is not so, my beloved.

For you see, what is recorded in the akashic records is what happened the way God saw it. And God looks at this, the Ascended Host look at this, the Divine Mother looks at this with no human emotions, as we have stated—none of the human emotions that you have, that might cause you to look at things with a negative overlay, my beloved.

Think about the fact that you all know; that you might have a traffic accident and you call in 5 witnesses and ask them to describe what they saw, and they saw 5 different versions of what happened. Well my beloved, imagine that you were in a situation many thousands of years ago when the murder of the Divine Mother on Lemuria happened. Imagine how all of the people who participated in that event—how they each have an individual vision of the event.

But none of them saw the event the way the Ascended Hosts see it. For each person saw it through the filter of their own consciousness, my beloved. And because of that filter, each person built a personal image that includes a mental picture but also a set of intense emotions about the event. And the emotions give to each person a personal pain. And the pain is so intense that the mechanism I just described kicks in, so that they will not look at the pain and thus must project the cause of the event outside themselves. And this very running away from looking at the event is what prevents you from rising above and being free of the event. My beloved, do you see this?

Audience: “YES!”

This is the very key to overcoming the ego. If you truly see and experience what I am describing here, my beloved, the key is to determine within yourself – to look at what takes away your peace – and realize that what takes away your peace may be the pain; but behind the pain is an event from the past where you did something that caused you to accept a completely unrealistic self-image. A self-image based on the lies and illusions of duality.

Be willing to see what really happened
And if you will then determine that you are willing to walk through the pain, then you can come to the point where you can say, “I am willing to look at the event,” but I ask you beloved Christ Self, beloved Jesus, beloved Mother Mary, beloved Master MORE – whichever Master is close to your heart – ask that Master to show you an inner vision of the event directly out of the akashic records, my beloved. So that you are not bound to look at the event only through the filter of the duality consciousness, which then will forever prevent you from seeing the illusion, seeing that you are more than the illusion and thus letting the illusion go.

So ask to be given that vision. What really happened? Not what your ego tells you happened. For I tell you that the ego and the false teachers will make you believe in a false image that makes you think that it is God the Father or God the Mother who is condemning you. And thus, you cannot lock into the unconditional love that is the key to consuming the event.

And thus, what I wish to give you here is the understanding that when you created that mental image of the event, you created – in the separate part of your mind – an image that is removed from the reality of what is recorded in the akashic records. A graven image, and that image is stored in your personal memory—the memory of the separate self, the mortal self you have built.

So you have, so to speak, a personal version of the akashic records. Only, what is recorded there is not what really happened, but what you think happened, seeing through the filter of the ego. And do you see my beloved, that as long as you do not challenge that mental image, that graven image, you will be bound by it because you will be condemning yourself to staying in the mental box formed by the image.

And you can never escape it; you can only keep running away from it. And in so doing, perhaps building layer upon layer that makes it harder and harder to either face the pain or to get to the bottom of what really happened because your attention is taken off on all these tangents. And thus, you can never come to that center, that point of stillness my beloved, where you can ask, “God, show me what really happened. I am willing to know?”

And I tell you when you see what really happened – and I say this regardless of what mistake you could have possibly have made – when you see what really happened, you will see that it is no more important than a child building a sand castle and deciding it didn’t look the way he wanted it, so he erases it and starts building a new one.

Give yourself the benefit of the doubt
Do you see what we said about the Ma-ter light? It will out-picture any image you project upon it, for it has no judgment. So at any moment, the Ma-ter light sets you free to let go of the old image and project a better one. You do not need to feel guilty about having projected an imperfect image, for God gave you free will. And God wants you to learn. And if you learn, was it really a mistake? What was the big deal, as they say?

Sometimes my beloved, you just have to give yourself the benefit of the doubt. Instead of feeling so absolutely convinced that you are a bad person. Be willing to question that image – projected into your mind – and say, “Maybe, I am just a child of God who built a sand castle that I really don’t like anymore. And so I don’t need to be bound by it; I can erase it and build another one. And my Divine Mother and my Divine Father will rejoice when I build a better castle. They will not make me feel guilty or unworthy or afraid or anything.”

Can you see, can you sense, can you feel my desire to see you be free of these old patterns? Can you sense that I am a representative of God, both as Father and Mother, my beloved? For as an ascended being, I have the perfect balance of masculine and feminine. For if I did not, how could I have ascended?


Copyright © 2012 by Kim Michaels